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  • EnigmaEnigma Lancaster, PAPosts: 12,184Member

    Originally posted by killerTwinkie

     

    In regards to Enimga's response to Finwe's post, I have to say, you can't ask for a more calm response. We knew you 6-8 years ago, as the cynical, witty pastor guy. Now, we dont know you. At least, I feel like I dont, and hell...we modded the forums for quite some time.

    I hope this routine gives new breath to your life. That's about all I can say on the subject.

    Killertwinkie,

     

    I am still cynical and witty. I am also happier now. Why does one have to feel like they no longer know me? My soul and heart is still the same.

    These things do not change :(

    People who have to create conspiracy and hate threads to further a cause lacks in intellectual comprehension of diversity.

  • FinweFinwe Fort Worth, TXPosts: 3,106Member

    Originally posted by Enigma

    Originally posted by Finwe

     

    This is the second, and possibly the last time I post my picture.

     

    And I have a question, directed at anyone, including at enigma, directed about enigma.

    When I left...Enigma was an ex-priest, who worked as like a manager at target, had a couple kids, and was married.

    I come back, and he's a attemptive girl going to college?

    I'm...beyond confused. Can I get an explanation? Anyone?

     I hadn't work at Target since 2008. I got a job at Liberty Mutual in 2008 then a couple years later I decided to go back to  college at Lancaster Theological Seminary.

    I dont think me being biologically intersexed is an "attemptive girl." You could have said it a little more nicely.

     

    Dude, I haven't been active on these boards for years, I don't keep up with your jobs, it was just a reference of who I remembered you as.

    And biologically intersexed? You were born with XXY chromosones, which really all you had different going for you was probably hypergonadism, gynocemastia, and obviously depression. Which even then it's not really even common in people with Klinefelter's syndrome, it's not even that rare of a genetic disorder. Technicaly, VERY technically, you could call yourself biologically intersexed, but that's kind of grabbing at straws; but honestly it'd be stupid to get into an argument about it, because I really do not care.

    All in all though, I'm really just disappointed in you iggy. You say your spirit and heart is the same, but really, it's not true. I once considered you to have a good grasp on reality and spirituality, but now, like what matt(KT) said, I really feel like I don't know who you are anymore.

    It's just...weird, you're a completely different person, with even a different syntax and form of vocabulary, I could rant on for paragraphs on end saying how it's immoral, wrong, etc. etc. But really, it'd be so ridiculously moot. I mean you, from what I remember, got your masters or doctorate in theology, you already know what I'd have to say, for I'm sure you yourself have had the same thoughts, and if you chose to ignore yourself, why the hell would you listen to me?

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  • SerienSerien Orlando, FLPosts: 8,460Member

    Originally posted by Finwe

    All in all though, I'm really just disappointed in you iggy. You say your spirit and heart is the same, but really, it's not true. I once considered you to have a good grasp on reality and spirituality, but now, like what matt(KT) said, I really feel like I don't know who you are anymore.

    It's just...weird, you're a completely different person, with even a different syntax and form of vocabulary, I could rant on for paragraphs on end saying how it's immoral, wrong, etc. etc. But really, it'd be so ridiculously moot. I mean you, from what I remember, got your masters or doctorate in theology, you already know what I'd have to say, for I'm sure you yourself have had the same thoughts, and if you chose to ignore yourself, why the hell would you listen to me?


    Originally posted by killerTwinkie

    In regards to Enimga's response to Finwe's post, I have to say, you can't ask for a more calm response. We knew you 6-8 years ago, as the cynical, witty pastor guy. Now, we dont know you. At least, I feel like I dont, and hell...we modded the forums for quite some time.

    I hope this routine gives new breath to your life. That's about all I can say on the subject.

    Iggy, I'm sure you're getting from what Matt and John have been saying is pretty much exactly how I feel: we thought we knew you -- that's all we're trying to say.

    Sorry iggy, but after being informed a little while back I am still pretty much at a loss for words other than what John and Matt have already said... I guess I'll go more into depth about how I feel and how I have been impacted (yea, that last part you read correctly) by your decisions once I know how to properly put it into words. No, not in a lecture-"ish" format. Just an "Honest to God, from the heart" manner.

    *AND please, before a judgement is passed that I am being condescending just know that again, what I am trying to say is that we knew (...or thought we knew) you for almost 8 years now. And, as Matt stated, not so much anymore.

    I just hope that you fully thought this through.

    That's my current statement on that subject.

     

    Semper Fi,

    Murt

  • EnigmaEnigma Lancaster, PAPosts: 12,184Member

    I am me. Regardless. I cannot change my gender identity just as a gay man or a lesbian woman cannot change their sexuality. I have struggled with this since I was six. Transitioning has been the most peaceful and greatest decision I have ever made.

    I am sorry you find me immoral or disapointing.  If you took the time to know the real me you may have a second opinion. But it is ok, I have made peace that there will be some people who will never accept or respect me; sad and superficial but realistic.

    I am way more than simply xxy chromosomes. I feel that I do not need to disclose my biological privacy to these forums but it is much more than a simple chromosome issue; and even if I was not intersexed, I would still have transitioned.

    People who have to create conspiracy and hate threads to further a cause lacks in intellectual comprehension of diversity.

  • devilisciousdeviliscious dallas, TXPosts: 6,906Member

    Originally posted by Enigma

    I am me. Regardless. I cannot change my gender identity just as a gay man or a lesbian woman cannot change their sexuality. I have struggled with this since I was six. Transitioning has been the most peaceful and greatest decision I have ever made.

    I am sorry you find me immoral or disapointing.  If you took the time to know the real me you may have a second opinion. But it is ok, I have made peace that there will be some people who will never accept or respect me; sad and superficial but realistic.

    I am way more than simply xxy chromosomes. I feel that I do not need to disclose my biological privacy to these forums but it is much more than a simple chromosome issue; and even if I was not intersexed, I would still have transitioned.

     I think you may misunderstand. Your definition of " me" is not the same definition of " me" you had before you made your decision to change your life. This happens anytime one closes a book on one chapter of their life and starts another. The definition of who you are, what you believe has changed, not just your physical aspects. You are a makeup of your life experiences ,choices,  and emotions. When you change those things they also change who you are.

    I have not undergone any where near the level of lifestyle change that you have, but for me, when I left my exhusband and decided I didn't want to " live in the fast lane" any more and wanted something different, I knowingly left alot behind. I left powerful connections, friends,  and a extremely wild lifestyle behind me to move on to what I felt I needed to do in life. If you had known me back then, you would have never guessed in a million years I would be volunteering in the community, on community boards, and organizaing charity events. I chose to leave the hardocre lifestyle behind me for what I felt was more fullfilling for me.

    In doing so however, my personality changed, my definition of " me", many of my friends, The core of who I am and who I want to be changed because of the choices and experiences changed.

    Sure, I still have some of my friends from before, but for the most part- I don;t want to have anything to do with their lifestyle choices, because I chose not to be around that. Yes, that does change how they view me, and how I view them. They have not changed, I have.

    Your friends have not changed, you have. That just comes with the decision, nothing against either your friends or you- that is just the way it is.

    Sure some of these things may have always been with you, but it is our choices that determine which of those affect our decision making. I still have quite a bit of the " wild side" in me , but I am no longer allowing it to rule my life. I have always been a geek at heart, just before most people never realized it because I was too busy throwing insane parties. LOL

  • EnigmaEnigma Lancaster, PAPosts: 12,184Member

    Devil I agree with everything you had to say and then some. Thank you for sharing your story.

    I don't think what I stated  came across clearly enough as what I was thinking (typing it out is sometimes so much more difficult than discussing this face to face).

    What I meant that I am still me is basically in a sense of being here on MMORPG.COM. Yes, I used to work with these (awesome) guys but no one here really knew me per se.  They knew me on a forum level but the extent of personal relationships stopped there.

    Yes, I have gone through a LOT of changes both physical, emotional, and mentally. However, on these forums I am still Niggy. I still <3 MMOs, love gaming, still go to conventions, love to debate, etc etc. I think the only changes I really made that someone would recognize in these forums is possibly my political affliation (from the religion thread) and where I stand sexually (which I am sorta now regretting coming out to on a gaming site....that wasn't smart on my side; people tend to say hurtful things behind a monitor when they dont have to look into the eyes of someone they hurt)).

    I guess what I am trying to say is on a level such as forum postings, I am still me. I still enjoy the same things as I did before. The only difference is, I am enjoying them as a girl rather than a guy now.

    People who have to create conspiracy and hate threads to further a cause lacks in intellectual comprehension of diversity.

  • devilisciousdeviliscious dallas, TXPosts: 6,906Member

    Originally posted by Enigma

    Devil I agree with everything you had to say and then some. Thank you for sharing your story.

    I don't think what I stated  came across clearly enough as what I was thinking (typing it out is sometimes so much more difficult than discussing this face to face).

    What I meant that I am still me is basically in a sense of being here on MMORPG.COM. Yes, I used to work with these (awesome) guys but no one here really knew me per se.  They knew me on a forum level but the extent of personal relationships stopped there.

    Yes, I have gone through a LOT of changes both physical, emotional, and mentally. However, on these forums I am still Niggy. I still <3 MMOs, love gaming, still go to conventions, love to debate, etc etc. I think the only changes I really made that someone would recognize in these forums is possibly my political affliation (from the religion thread) and where I stand sexually (which I am sorta now regretting coming out to on a gaming site....that wasn't smart on my side; people tend to say hurtful things behind a monitor when they dont have to look into the eyes of someone they hurt)).

    I guess what I am trying to say is on a level such as forum postings, I am still me. I still enjoy the same things as I did before. The only difference is, I am enjoying them as a girl rather than a guy now.

     I dunno.. everyone tells me I am soo much meaner in person than I am online..image

    I do not allow most people to get to know more about me, I keep them at a distance. Most people make assumptions about me by my appearance and out going personality. I usually try to reserve criticism online compared to what I will tell someone straight to their face.  Any guy who has hit on me while out clubbing, can tell you I am not very nice. LOL

    Maybe talking about these personal things on a gaming forum is easier than telling someone in person, For me I can hold back my urge to be a smart ass, and delete something I shouldn;t say that might just come out in reflex reaction.

    In person I  do not have patience, get easily annoyed by overly emotional people, and have no problems telling someone straight to their face what I think, but I have always been that way. I am wayy more likely to be hurtful in person than online.. but each person is different in how they react.

    I am very particular about my friends in person, they have to have a real connection- we have to " get" each other, or I really do not have the patience to talk to them at all. Humor is very much important to me, but if they are emo I get really short with them.

    If I feel someone is acting stupid, Yes, I will tell them straight to their face, and not hold back. Because I believe it is better to be direct than to just let them go about thinking that I can stand to be around them. I have hurt feelings by being blunt, but sometimes I feel feelings need to be hurt or they will never realize how they are behaving is annoying. They need to understand why I  don;t want to talk to them, or they will just keep going blindly through life without ever knowing what it was..

    I have gay friends, but then there are some I cannot be around and Yes, I openly make fun of them to their face. Not for being gay but for acting like idiots. But it isn't just me .. I mean it is pretty funny when a gay guy tells another gay guy " you're such a FAG!". But yea that guy really is that bad. Overcompensation no matter what your gender, sexuality, personality is usally annoying no matter who you are. LOL

    That is not being a bigot- that is just letting them know they are being annoying Even if that hurts that persons feelings, sometimes it just needs to be said.

     

     

  • ZindaihasZindaihas Seattle, WAPosts: 5,164Member

    Hey ^liscious, how'd they get you to pose for the new Heroes of Might & Magic Kingdoms advertisement on this website?

    Is it really true that if I show you my might, you'll show me your magic? image

  • IlliusIllius Toronto, ONPosts: 4,148Member

    Originally posted by Zindaihas

    Hey ^liscious, how'd they get you to pose for the new Heroes of Might & Magic Kingdoms advertisement on this website?

    Is it really true that if I show you my might, you'll show me your magic? image

    Hmm, for once my adblock is working against me...

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  • modjoe86modjoe86 Fayetteville, ARPosts: 4,082Member

     

    Only recent picture of me, and I have a moderately attractive asian in the picture, too! Timestamp is off, its 11/09. 

    "The birds they sang
    at the break of day.
    Start again I heard them say;
    Don't dwell on what has passed away
    or what is yet to be."
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  • ZindaihasZindaihas Seattle, WAPosts: 5,164Member

    Originally posted by modjoe86

     

    Only recent picture of me, and I have a moderately attractive asian in the picture, too! Timestamp is off, its 11/09. 

     Congrats, dude.  She is way out of your league. image

  • seabass2003seabass2003 Medina, WAPosts: 4,144Member

    Originally posted by Zindaihas

    Originally posted by modjoe86

     

    Only recent picture of me, and I have a moderately attractive asian in the picture, too! Timestamp is off, its 11/09. 

     Congrats, dude.  She is way out of your league. image

    I agree. Wait she is Asian? What part?

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  • modjoe86modjoe86 Fayetteville, ARPosts: 4,082Member

    Originally posted by seabass2003

     

    I agree. Wait she is Asian? What part?

    You guys suck.  I'm a 6 on a good day. She's a Filipino, and her mom is a crazy immigrant. They own a kudamundi, which is pretty badass.

     

    "The birds they sang
    at the break of day.
    Start again I heard them say;
    Don't dwell on what has passed away
    or what is yet to be."
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  • IlliusIllius Toronto, ONPosts: 4,148Member

    Originally posted by modjoe86

    Originally posted by seabass2003


     

    I agree. Wait she is Asian? What part?

    You guys suck.  I'm a 6 on a good day. She's a Filipino, and her mom is a crazy immigrant. They own a kudamundi, which is pretty badass.

     

    I think it's Coatimundi, and your woman there looks like she's more a mix of Filipino and something else.  I have a decent amount of Filipino friends and I've yet to see one that looks like that.  Either way, she's hot, good find.

    No required quests! And if I decide I want to be an assassin-cartographer-dancer-pastry chef who lives only to stalk and kill interior decorators, then that's who I want to be, even if it takes me four years to max all the skills and everyone else thinks I'm freaking nuts. -Madimorga-

  • SgtFrogSgtFrog LondonPosts: 5,001Member

    Originally posted by modjoe86

     

    Only recent picture of me, and I have a moderately attractive asian in the picture, too! Timestamp is off, its 11/09. 

    Moderatley attractive? she's cute lol

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  • outfctrloutfctrl Jacksonville, FLPosts: 3,619Member

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  • baffbaff swaveseyPosts: 9,457Member

  • devilisciousdeviliscious dallas, TXPosts: 6,906Member

    Originally posted by baff

     What is this all about?!!image

  • SgtFrogSgtFrog LondonPosts: 5,001Member

    Originally posted by deviliscious

    Originally posted by baff

     What is this all about?!!image

    I think it is something to do with outfctrl tattoos.

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  • baffbaff swaveseyPosts: 9,457Member

    They come off in the shower matey.

    During the week he works in an office. (And drives a hatchback!!!).

  • devilisciousdeviliscious dallas, TXPosts: 6,906Member

    Originally posted by baff

    They come off in the shower matey.

    During the week he works in an office. (And drives a hatchback!!!).

     ROFL!!! I soo thought those were scrapbooking stickers not temporary tatoos.. HAHAHAHAH!! image

  • Sid_ViciousSid_Vicious Sandpoint, IDPosts: 1,526Member

    lol

    wait you gotta see my beavis one : )

    heh heh heh that was cool

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  • GTwanderGTwander San Diego, CAPosts: 6,035Member

    Now *that's* comedy.

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  • EnigmaEnigma Lancaster, PAPosts: 12,184Member

    New Haircut. :)

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    People who have to create conspiracy and hate threads to further a cause lacks in intellectual comprehension of diversity.

  • VooDoo_PapaVooDoo_Papa Somewhere on a beach on the east coast, FLPosts: 883Member Uncommon

    My wife and I at the *edit* oops.. thats Sedona  (last November)

    (glad to see so many of you guys post your actual pics.)

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